Sweet Misery

Exams ended few days ago. And it's been a while since i really ponder upon my life. The world is pretty itself, but wars and diseases never fail to mar the world's visage.

i loved to enjoy the view of the crytal blue sky when i sat quietly by the window. it seems so tranquil and comfy. It strucked me hard when i was asked : " why do people have illnesS? what about those who are born [limbless] or even die shortly after they are born?".

I was on my way to the hospital. Visiting my cousin who suffered from kidney failure. it's been long since i've visited the hospital. there is no need to apprise me the atmosphere of hospital as i've been quite familiar with it, the scent of the smelly air is pervasive, even the lifts stink. I saw my cousin lying there helplessly, doing peritonial theraphy. She seemed tired but she managed a weak smile when she saw me and dad. i thought i saw tears in her eyes.

few years back, it was my mom who laid there. now she's gone, and now all i could do is to pray hard so that none of my family members falls sick. life is tough. it's true that u won't appreciate sb, not until they're gone.

and i need no sympathy, i'm not pathetic, not yet.

Break ups and Arguments are just part of the colours of the life. there's much more space for happiness and guffaws. family and friends had accompanied me during the toughest moment of my life. i can't grieve. It behoves me to go on and enjoy every moment of life, whether it's tough or not, the life is mine. and i'm gonna fill it with every part of me.